So, today I actually left the house. I know, I was pretty excited about it too. A friend of mine, Lu, called yesterday and wanted to go shopping and then to lunch. Now, for most people this would not be that big of a deal, but lately I am seriously worried that I am becoming agoraphobic. I was thinking that I have not been out of the house for about three weeks, then I remembered I did go babysit my nieces. But besides that excursion I have not been anywhere.
I agreed to go, but I was having these second thoughts about it all night. Then today, seriously, I was having a mild panic attack about going. It’s so strange. I know it’s not rational, but then I guess phobias really aren’t rational – hence them being phobias and all. So anyway I talked myself out of the panic attack and ended up going.
My friend lives in another small town, so she came and picked me up and then we went to yet another town. First, we ate at a locally owned Mexican restaurant – excellent food and some really delicious guacamole. I also found out that Lu’s boss, gave her the money to pay for lunch for both of us. He is the sweetest little old man. I just love him to death and tell him all the time I want to adopt him to be my grandpa. He’s always doing very nice things for my husband and I, and this was just one more thing.
After we ate, we went to the health food store. I bought some organic tea, some unbleached baking cups and some quinoa, “soul food of the Andes,” for my husband. I bought it mostly because it says BOLIVIA on it really big. And it’s fair trade – bonus! So, that was all good.
We wanted to go for coffee somewhere, but there really isn’t anywhere to go around here, so my friend settled for McDonald’s coffee and I got water. Next, we had to go to the regular grocery store. I didn’t get too much there because it’s hard for me to grocery shop with someone else. Another one of my strange quirks. I usually have a folder of coupons and it takes all this concentration for me and I get easily stressed, and who wants to share all that with friends? So, I just bought some bananas and first aid tape.
After that we drove around the town looking at all the different old houses and critiquing the “curb appeal” of each one. We laughed at our own snobbery but it was fun and something I would never do with my husband because it would bore the crap out of him. The day turned out to be absolutely gorgeous, so it was nice to just drive around and talk.
On the way home we stopped by the little country cemetary where my son is buried. It’s a really lovely and peaceful cemetary and we just strolled around reading all the old headstones. I also picked up all these acorn tops there (the part that looks like little hats). I was thinking how cute they would look made into little “nests” and used on the table at Thanksgiving. If it works out, I’ll post some pictures.
It was a really nice day all in all and I was glad I decided to go. Sometimes when you isolate yourself it’s easy to forget how good it is to get out and be around other humans. I don’t know why the thought of it stresses me out so much.
But now, due to overwhelming requests, I am posting a photo of my childhood horse, Eddie Peddie Blackie. That’s me on the right and my sister on the left, (doesn’t she looks so cute with that scarf and those chubby cheeks?). That’s my great-grandpa leading the horse (while letting me think that I’m doing something with those reins I’m holding). So, there you have it! I can also tell you that the sweater I’m wearing was kelly green and my sister’s was gold – so much more vivid for you now, isn’t it!